nobody worth blaming.

Holding onto my stomach,
with both hands and a wall.
Guess Ive gotta stop running,
If I refuse to fall.
But where do I go,
When my insides escape?
Another chance blown,
When you promised I was safe.
I want to love,
but always at arms length.
Did it to myself,
Again and again and again.
where's my bright light?
Where are my wings?
Another lonely night,
Despite the company.

glast.

Truth is I made you up, pretended you were worthy.
I may have been in love, but you were far from perfect.
I know better than to believe, what careless sheep declare.
But you never wanted me, and I never wanted to care.
I told u we were nothing, you insisted you were serious.
but I KNEW you'd end up running, but I still let you be mysterious.
I know u couldn't care less, and I'm pretending that's fine.
but my heart's a fucking mess, and its sick of being left behind.
I never want to see a dick, again in my whole life.
I know I don't need u to give a shit, but fuck it would be nice.

Mothership.

My world wont fail me.
They're on their way.
I'm happy waiting.
but I miss space.


My words wont fail me.
Not today.
Replace the hating.
We're all okay.

join us.

....

that guy.

some space, thats all he needs.
because he doesnt know  anymore.
we all know what that realy means,
but i leave behind my world and walk out the door.

keep busy, avoid neurvious pacing.
clutching a washing machine stomache,
dizzy from your heart racing,
a battle with my mind, trying to out run it.

i wont force a fish to walk,
and i wont forbid a bird to fly.
so if i cant give him what his looking for,
ill gracefully step aside

but it fucking hurts.
everything fucking hurts.
yesterday i still felt like the luckyest girl alive...
...
i was gonna' finish this post, but then i got high.

Dream Frostbites.

"...When it feels like it's everybody for themselves,
And the place where ya living is'nt far from hell,
And they keep tellin' you, you were born to fail,
And everybody say they real but it's too hard to tell.
So until I die, I'mma always grind.
I'mma be ok, I'mma be alright.
If they say I fail, that would be a lie.
But there aint no such thing as a tie.
They only love ya when ya on..."

eyes, open.

More "Lyrics of great social and political importance."

immortal technique.


"...I'm from where they overthrow democratic leaders
not for the people but for the Wall Street Journal readers
from where blacks, indigenous peoples and Asians were once
slaves of the Caucasians and it's amazing how they trained them
to be racist against themselves in a place they were raised in
and you kept us caged in
destroyed our culture and said that you civilized us
raped our woman and when we were born you despised us
gentrified us, agent provocateurs divide us
and crucified every revolutionary messiah
so I'ma start a global riot
that not even your fake
anti-communist dictators can keep quiet..."

"lyrics of great social and political importance."

Artist: Immortal Technique f/ Mos Def & Eminem.
Album: Bin Laden 12"
Song: Bin Laden

Lyrics:

Man, you hear this bullshit they be talkin'
Every day, man
It's like these motherfuckers is just like professional liars
YouknowwhatI'msayin? It's wild
Listen

Bin Laden didn't blow up the projects
It was you, nigga
Tell the truth, nigga
(Bush knocked down the towers)
Tell the truth, nigga
(Bush knocked down the towers)
Tell the truth, nigga

I pledge no allegiance, nigga fuck the president's speeches
I'm baptized by America and covered in leeches
The dirty water that bleaches your soul and your facial features
Drownin' you in propaganda that they spit through the speakers
And if you speak about the evil that the government does
The Patriot Act'll track you to the type of your blood
They try to frame you, and say you was tryna sell drugs
And throw a federal indictment on niggaz to show you love
This shit is run by fake Christians, fake politicians
Look at they mansions, then look at the conditions you live in
All they talk about is terrorism on television
They tell you to listen, but they don't really tell you they mission
They funded Al-Qaeda, and now they blame the Muslim religion
Even though Bin Laden, was a CIA tactician
They gave him billions of dollars, and they funded his purpose
Fahrenheit 9/11, that's just scratchin' the surface

Bin Laden didn't blow up the projects
It was you, nigga
Tell the truth, nigga
(Bush knocked down the towers)
Tell the truth, nigga
(Bush knocked down the towers)
Tell the truth, nigga

They say the rebels in Iraq still fight for Saddam
But that's bullshit, I'll show you why it's totally wrong
Cuz if another country invaded the hood tonight
It'd be warfare through Harlem, and Washington Heights
I wouldn't be fightin' for Bush or White America's dream
I'd be fightin' for my people's survival and self-esteem
I wouldn't fight for racist churches from the south, my nigga
I'd be fightin' to keep the occupation out, my nigga
You ever clock someone who talk shit, or look at you wrong?
Imagine if they shot at you, and was rapin' your moms
And of course Saddam Hussein had chemical weapons
We sold him that shit, after Ronald Reagan's election
Mercenary contractors fightin' a new era
Corporate military bankin' off the war on terror
They controllin' the ghetto, with the failed attack
Tryna distract the fact that they engineerin' the crack
So I'm strapped like Lee Malvo holdin' a sniper rifle
These bullets'll touch your kids, and I don't mean like Michael
Your body be sent to the morgue, stripped down and recycled
I fire on house niggaz that support you and like you
Cuz innocent people get murdered in the struggle daily
And poor people never get shit and struggle daily
This ain't no alien conspiracy theory, this shit is real
Written on the dollar underneath the Masonic seal

(I don't rap for dead presidents
I'd rather see the president dead
It's never been said but I set precedents)

Bin Laden didn't blow up the projects

It was you, nigga
Tell the truth, nigga
(Bush knocked down the towers)
Tell the truth, nigga
(Bush knocked down the towers)Tell the truth, nigga
(Bush knocked down the towers)

(Shady Records was 80 seconds away from the towers
Some cowards fucked with the wrong building, they meant to hit ours)

To Sydney and back in one day.

Fucking exhausted. Want cuddles.

                             ☮

a Floyd of Pink.

Mother do you think they'll drop the bomb
Mother do you think they'll like the song
Mother do you think they'll try to break my balls
Ooooh aah, Mother should I build a wall
Mother should I run for president
Mother should I trust the government
Mother will they put me in the firing line
Ooooh aah, is it just a waste of time
Hush now baby, baby don't you cry
Mama's gonna make all of your
Nightmares come true
Mama's gonna put all of her fears into you
Mama's gonna keep you right here
Under her wing
she won't let you fly but she might let you sing
Mama will keep baby cosy and warm
Ooooh Babe Ooooh Babe Ooooh Babe
Of course Mama's gonna help build the wall

Mother do think she's good enough for me
Mother do think she's dangerous to me
Mother will she tear your little boy apart
Oooh aah, mother will she break my heart
Hush now baby, baby don't you cry
Mama's gonna check out all your girl friends for you
Mama won't let anyone dirty get through
Mama's gonna wait up till you get in
Mama will always find out where
You've been
Mamma's gonna keep baby healthy and clean
Ooooh Babe Ooooh Babe Ooooh Babe
You'll always be a baby to me


Ooooh Babe Ooooh Babe Ooooh Babe
Of course Mama's gonna help build the wall
Mother, did it need to be so high. 

dear баща

i had a dream last night.

you were not yet divorced.

we got into the biggest fight,

and you told me what you thought.

i yelled at you so hard,

tears came out my mouth.

but you just got in your car,

and  worried about yourself.

i told майка i couldn't breath,

hoping someone would care.

but of course she deserted me,

i was so fucking scared.

i grabbed her by the buttons on her shirt,

just when she was leaving,

devastated, i look up at her,

begging, loving, needing.

but i stood in public, alone 

emotionally obliterated

with nowhere to call home,

embarrassed and intimidated.

then suddenly i'm in bed,

soaking in rejection.

i run to there bedroom,

desperate for affection.

"why don't you  love me!?"

i screamed like a beast.

"its YOUR fault i'm not free,

YOU DID THIS TO ME."

but nothing came out, 

your cowardice mouth.

you sat there like a stone.

no regard to the pain i felt,

i begged you to explain,

but you did not utter a sound.

how can i sleep, when my hearts' in so much pain?

how could you exist, when your's could not be found?

so i crawled back to bed ready to die,

feeling like a fucking mistake,

when through my wall, i hear you cry.

and i feel you accept your fate.

i think deep down you know,

you should have dealt with your problems.

before they took control,

and you could no longer solve them.

you know karmas got you,

so you have admitted defeat.

you know exactly what you've put me through,

and that its way to late to retreat.

life is just to hard, 

when you worry about me,

because your convinced you cant make up,

for the damage your life has done to me.

so you dismiss me constantly,

just wishing i would shut up.

claiming "i don't know what you want from me?"

telling me to "grow up."

your just not man enough to face the truth

and i'm truly sorry for that,

because i cant keep hoping for something from you,

that i've never really had.

i realise all i can do is walk away,

or i'm going to die here.

i'm not prepared to share your fate,

your free now, to live your life in fear.

so have another drink.